I’ve been in two minds over whether or not to post this or not, but I’ve meditated and prayed on it and I have decided to do so.

The reason I was in two minds as to whether or not to post this is because this is the first time I have ever mentioned or spoke about this… But again this is the first time I have openly mentioned everything I’ve posted so far… I just hope this helps someone.

One day I decide enough was enough. I no longer wanted to live. I had reached a breaking point and I didn’t think I could take it any longer. I wanted to be with God. I begged and begged God to take me. I would pray that I wouldn’t wake up and it will be all over…. To no avail. I was here. I was alive. I was healthy… And…